According to ME

SO, many times we may have watched on TV talk shows how to duplicate an expensive outfit for a much cheaper price. Sometime the cheaper price is not really that cheap for the average, VERY AVERAGE American. SERIOUSLY tho, What is consider average nowadays? I guess depending who I ask I will receive different responses, I assume the better off the person is, the better off the response for the average jane would be. According to ME Mizz Mojica :) the average jane, would be define as, an individual in their mid-twenties living check by check, without a savings, learning the game for hustling LATE IN THE GAME! (omg smh), therefore the average jane does not care very much for fashion BUT understands she can not be looking a mess!

Just because I can not afford the expensive urban wear or the expensive European labels DOES NOT mean I will be walking around Boston looking a hot mess! No absolutely Not! I remember as a young child (lol okaii so this is my brown humor), but as a child my mom would want us to look extra poor when going to the welfare office and I did not understand why? I use to think to myself but mah we really are poor! Even in our best I think they should know we are poor! After reading one of the best book ever, "Roll of Thunder Hear My Cry" by Mildred D. Taylor. I kept a teaching from one of the characters Big Ma, just because we are poor does not mean we have to be looking a mess :), with that said I follow those words precisely! And again Iam talking "american poor". What is American poor? well we are blessed with the neccessary and that is more than enough. But we can not afford anything extra that is not paper toilet and house cleaning supplies :) lol, forreal!

Since fashion can not be my number 1 priority, I wash my clothes every week and I mix and match so it wont look all too familiar, that is the average jane strategy for fashion survival. I really pride myself in being able to look good in last season clothing and putting my own twist of creativity and life, even if it is just a simple scarf! Now as an adult Iam left with two impressions that have parallel each other. The thought that I have to look poor in order to receive assistance and the thought that just because I am "poor" does not mean I have to be looking like a hobo. I feel like especially because I may be "poor" mula wise, I can not look a mess, I have to look presentable at all times!! So thats fashion according to me. Look your best at your financial worst! Fashion is more than labels and brands Fashion is Passion for Beauty :)!

Love, I have questions ???

As I get older in age I can not help but think of possibilities of a soul mate. Everyone has thoughts on "Love", there are no age, gender and/or sex requirements in order for an individual to think, imagine, urge for love. BUT, at a certain point My normal thoughts of Love has turned into something much deeper it has turned into yearning for the perfect mate that I may love and build a future with. Does the ability to identify that awesome feeling of love and recognize you need and want it for your life defines a women rites of passage?

I have had a little taste of love. Having that little taste makes me disagree with the phrase " 'Tis better to have loved and lost, Than never to have loved at all", how would I ever miss something so beautiful had I never saw, felt, heard, smell, taste, lived it? I wouldn't have. Damn me I have experienced real love, not the love towards a mom or dad who you known all your life and has for the most part of your life been your nurturer and provider. No, it is an unexpected love, a love you learn from, because you have gained knowledge, wisdom, you love love more. So is not just a physical or sexual thing, is so much deeper. It is a love you have heard of but never knew it could happen to you, is a love that creeps up on you, changes your whole life. Is a love that open your eyes from, "I love mommy!, I love that car!, I love Jennifer Lopez!", to a more conscious feeling of a good true emotion that makes you feel even more alive by allowing you to see the world so different with many new possibilities. Has anyone ever experienced that? I have and while it was mines I loved it.

BUT, it is also true all good things must come to an end :(. I know I am able to love but the person I chose to continue to love unfortunately did not feel the same way. For this reason I must disagree with Alfred Lord Tennyson and say it is better to never have known love. When love is gone there is a huge void that can not be replaced by any other thing. If love does not come knocking on my door again, I stay with a longing and emptiness, feeling oppressed by wonderful memories that I had a long time ago. Love causes great changes in your inner person. Loosing love leaves you the job of repairing yourself depending how the love was lost. Also, restoring yourself back to health (mental, spiritual, emotional) and normalcy (your normal routine), at least in my case.

What brings me consolation is I know I was made to love, I was made to truly love someone, I was made for that purpose I feel there is an equally lovely person who was made to receive my love and share it. All good things take time it takes time to refine pure gold. The love of My life I believe is on his own journey letting life refine him like gold as will life do to me or has been doing. In our perfect timing we will find each other. I am certain. :)

Le Penseur

So as I was cleansing in the shower, my darling who I been with for almost two years, a time that has allowed us to gain a certain comfort level was conducting his daily morning rituals. As nature took its course and I began to smell the product of nature mixed with man-made Lever 2000 soap scent, I could not help but peer through the shower curtains. Initially I was going to let my darling know this is just not working out, but as the curtains were pulled aside, before me was a scene all too familiar but peculiar, causing a moment of thought followed by a moment of Laughter!

My darling seem to be in a powerful internal struggle, he sat on the toilet with his left elbow resting on his left knee, his head resting on his left hand, his right hand on his right thigh, all his muscles flexed, his eyes closed in deep concentration, and butt-naked! Instantly my brain compared this image to that of the European artist, Auguste Rodin, sculpture ‘The Thinker’. I mean the comparison was so inevitable. He looked just like the sculpture! It was hilarious!

I began to have racing thoughts wondering... Was the sculpture somehow linked to men struggle in the bathroom? How concentration and certain body pose can help your bowel movements? Why the sculpture was called “the thinker”? Is this what the picture supposes to do? Make you think?! Well it served its purpose! ;). Or could it be, the artist realizes the bathroom is that space that allows the mind to expand!? I mean from personal experience, the bathroom has been a place where I can explore my artistic side. I belch out all different type of notes while singing in the shower. I tend to do some deep meditation while in the bathroom, it is the place I most think, and is where I come out with the most outrageous ideas.

I decided to do my own research on the matter, after much thought and curiosity. OMG! SOM!(shame on me for thinking this way!) For the sculpture does not represent this at all! This sculpture actually represents a small piece of a bigger, detailed, beautiful masterpiece! As it turned out this historic sculpture has so much depth in meaning. Originally named “Les Penseur”, the thinker is supposed to represent Dante pondering in front of the gates of hell about his poem. According to an online encyclopedia it may also represent philosophy, or the “love of wisdom”. I may be able to conclude it may have been the love of wisdom that provoked Italian writer Dante Alighieri to create such an exquisite literary art piece, “The Divine Comedy”, with his imaginative interpretation of the Christians after life.

At the end of all this research, I was left with my darling philosophy description of life and the afterlife, which gratefully left room in MY imagination to come up with my own conclusions of Hell. While Dantes word’s where insightful and Rodin haunting art piece imaginative and beautiful, it made me over think of the after life too much. These images are of a ‘brilliant’ mans imagination; I think who would really want to sit and ponder about so much gloom. What may be the thinker philosophy of the Christian afterlife, may seem as a whole, all to complex!

My darlings philosophy, which is, “We are all shit, when we die we are shit, we become shit” to me was not just humorous, it also defined modern day philosophical thoughts of the afterlife. According to the online encyclopedia, http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Gates_of_Hell, there are people who say this may be Rodin contemplating of Dante’s characters or Dante pondering in the gates of hell. Is it me only who thinks is funny that whichever man ‘The Thinker’ happens to be, is sitting in the same pose my darling, most likely many other Men, and maybe even you! Sit to use the toilet!

In conclusion I wonder if Rodin had a sense of humor as a great Artist of his days and purposely positioned The Thinker on top of all the images the way he did cuz everything beneath the sculpture is a whole load of crap! Maybe he too concluded after givin Dante's work much thought, "We are all shit, when we die we are shit, we become shit”. In Spanish it literally was “Mami to so mo mierda. Oh Claro estamos lleno de mierda, y cuando moramo, e pa la tierra que vamo, y no hacemo una mierda”. LOL Brilliant! this is the “Modern Day Thinker”!

Originally, While My darling sat there in his pose, which is all too similar to that of Rodin’ s masterpiece, this is his philosophy of the afterlife. All he was thinking about was taking all that shit out, his inspiration for taking all that shit out may have been that he had to take care of a lot of shit, like his bills, problems at the job, just situations, but way back in the mind his concept of the afterlife was beautifully put!

Surprisingly this brought a beautiful peace feeling in me, That as I get out the shower all I have to worry about is making today count by working hard, so hopefully if tommorrow comes it will count as well, everything else is a load of crap, nothing is guaranteed. This body will just become what you eat and worm food. The soul, that should be left for your intimacy with God to ponder where your soul may go after here, maybe it does deserve he hellish fires Dante wrote about and Rodin sculpted, but who really knows?